What If I Disappeared

I walk through the hall
No one turns their head
I laugh sometimes
But it feels like I'm dead

I text “I’m fine”
Then delete the app
I stare at the ceiling
And try not to snap

No sound in my chest
Just a beat on repeat
I’m here in the room
But I'm stuck underneath

I’m invisible
Why don’t you fuckin’ see?
I’m drowning
But you look through me

I’m screaming
But no one breaks
I’m falling
And you still stay fake

I got dust in my lungs
And my thoughts on mute
I don’t cry — I just shake
When the silence shoots

I try to speak
But the room don’t move
I could die on the floor
And they’d change the tune

They say “you matter”
Just to feel okay
But if I disappeared
Would they notice a day?